Why do I not obey?

The Lord has been being very specific with me. More specific than he used to be. It made me wonder why? When my husband and I were talking I shared that detail with him and he didn't say anything specific about it. Than a week later I was at a retreat and one of the speakers said the more you know the Lord and the closer your relationship the more specific he will be with you. For being a Christian for many years it might seem strange that I didn't know that. I have known the Lords voice for many years now so I know he seeks relationship with me and speaks to me but being specific with me was news to me!

I am finding more and more that he will put something on my heart and want me to tell someone. 2 times in the last 5 days he has done that I didn't obey. I hate to admit that. The first time was a dear friend and what he put on my heart concerning her was 6 words long. It just seemed SO minor that I couldn't bring myself to take it to her. I knew I was supposed to. I felt it would be dismissed (not that she would rudely do that but now I can see that was the enemy lying to me!!!) and threw it out. A few days later I spoke to her and after something she shared I went ahead and told her. I also apologized for not tell her earlier.

Today I found myself at my Titus 2 group. During worship the Lord told me to tell the woman next to me that he knows her pain. I didn't know her. I had never spoken to her (our group is HUGE) and so I just set it aside. We sat down and worship was over. The speaker prayed shortly after and the woman being crying. I felt awful. I knew I had missed it....again. I grabbed some tissue and gave them to her and than shared with her what the Lord wanted her to know.

I am so grateful for his voice. I am so grateful for his word and spirit within me. Please Lord help me to be obedient. I am so grateful that I serve a Lord who doesn't give up on me.